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My Testimony 
Part 2

 

What happened after becoming a born again Christian?
My Accomplishments, Setbacks, Total Depression, & Recovery



Since becoming a child of God, I have tried to serve Him. God called me into the ministry in Feb. 1981 and I was licensed through the Allegre Missionary Baptist Church. I then began doing missionary work. (You can read and see some pictures about the trips and work on my Missionary page). I have made 1 gospel album,
"Riding for Jesus" and 1 gospel singing tape (with some of the songs I wrote)
"My Songs of Praise". I have written gospel songs and poem. Have received numerous certificates of appreciation and won the Editor's Choice Award, presented to me by the National Library of Poetry. I have a poem and biography published in a book entitled "Dance Upon the Shore". I have preached and sung on radio, TV, for revivals, homecomings, crusades, etc. The Holy Spirit has revealed many deep truths to me but my walk hasn't always been a bed of roses. I have slipped on occasion and just as the prodigal son, had wallowed with the swine:
Luke 15; 11, 32
I am not bragging and I hope that you don't take it that way. I have not accomplished a great deal as in comparison with the many great men down through the ages and what little I have done was and is by the Grace of God. And so to God Must I give all credit, Praise and Glory. I am just so thankful that God has allowed me to be His humble servant.

Some people would have you believe that becoming a Christian and living the Christian life is a bowl of cherries, apiece of cake, as simple as falling off of a log. But nothing could be further from the truth. While this may not be the way it happened in your case, it is what happened to me. I fought being saved for over two years before finally surrendering my life to Jesus and accepting Him as my Lord and Saviour. After becoming a child of the King I thought my problems were over and nothing major happened for several years. BUT THEN, Satan sneaked in the back door. I was trying to fight him with sin in my life and that is like climbing into a boxing ring with both boxing gloves tied behind your back and your shoe laces tied together. Even Muhammad Ali couldn't win a fight like that.

I didn't have on the whole armor of God and my work for the Lord slowed to almost a stop. Singing very little and preaching even less I became complacent; Being content with doing the minimal service. Not willing to do ALL that God wanted me to do and God allowed me to get away with it for a season. I will say this however; when God has had enough it becomes a terrifying experience.

When you have been walking on the water with Jesus but then look away and all of a sudden find yourself sinking into the dark waters; no longer able to breath, barely able to see because the water is almost over your head, Well, it doesn't take a Rocket Scientist to figure out that you need both hands reaching and groping for the Hem of His Robe. Right now you are probably asking yourself; How could anyone let himself get into this kind of predicament? The Answer!
Just a little bit at a time until all at once you realize and wake up to the fact of where you are and what you have done.

In 1995 I became disabled and went from being very active, working as a construction boilermaker welder, raising Appaloosa Horses, doing missionary, evangelistic, and singing engagements, plus I had a welding and paint shop where I restored old cars, etc. to being totally inactive. Since that time I have gone from being overweight to (what the doctor terms) morbid obesity (in excess of 450 Lbs. and life threatening).

This on top of other physical problems caused me to go into deep depression, so much so as thoughts of suicide became my constant companion. And yes, I had the hammer cocked on my 357 and was chewing on the barrel more than once. Not even Connie, my wife, knew about this as I have kept it to myself, withdrawn from everyone. My mind became a total disaster. All I can say is, that Jesus was always with me and kept me from pulling the trigger, even though I didn't realize it at the time.

I am ashamed of these times in my Christian life and wasn't going to include this in my testimony. But the Holy Spirit has revealed to me that some other sad, lonely, and distraught person may need to see this and realize that if I could overcome this problem by the Grace of God, then they could too. If you are reading this and you are or have been thinking of just ending it all, PLEASE! PLEASE! TALK TO JESUS!

No matter how far you have fallen. No matter what kind of trouble you are in. No matter what you have done. No matter who has deeply hurt you. No matter who you have lost. No matter what kind of physical shape you have gotten into.

NO MATTER! NO MATTER! IT WILL GET BETTER!

I promise you it will get better. I PROMISE!

I am not a psychiatrist. I am not a counselor. I am just an ol' roughneck who, by the Grace of God found Jesus one day and accepted Him as My Lord and Saviour. I have learned in life that people will let you down, parents, husbands, wives, children, friends, and family will all let you down. Every one and every thing will let you down BUT Jesus will never let you down. He will ALWAYS be there for you.

In Feb. 1999, Connie got me a computer and I started playing checkers, spades, euchre, etc. I had been in depression for 3+ years at this time and every day had become a battle, both mentally as well as physically. As I started learning how to use my computer, I one day stumbled across a Christian site Home Page. It was beautiful and I started hunting for more Christian sites, I was starving for Jesus and I couldn't get enough and I might add I still can't. One day as I was surfing the Holy Spirit said; You could do this. You can make one of these sites. It was like a bolt of lightning had hit me. Well I am here to tell you that my first attempt was a total disaster so I decided to make my Appaloosa Horse site first. I figured if I made a mess of that no one would care. I kept learning, mostly by trial and error and would lock my computer up so bad that I would have to run the start up disk to set it back to factory specs. I would lose everything. Finally I had a horse site with music and felt comfortable with trying to make something worthy enough to please God.

And so the last of September 1999 I began the "I'm Heaven Bound" site. Since 1995 I had thought my ministry was over but now I realize that God had something else in mind for me. I just had to suffer some trials and tribulations in preparation of transforming my mind to doing His Will. I will not lie to you. It hasn't been easy and I am in almost constant pain and I spend many long hours to get a page just the way I feel that God would be pleased with. I can see by the comments in my guest book and by the e-mails I have been receiving and the votes I have gotten for my Christian site that I am accomplishing what God has set forth for me to do. And that is to be a blessing and to encourage others, and to reach a lost and dying world with Jesus.

I can now rejoice in my infirmities, (1Peter 4: 12, 13), realizing that God allowed my disability so that I might be able to understand some of the complexities of the fragile mind, and through this understanding, show compassion and love for those who are experiencing the emotional trauma of depression. If you are sad, lonely, or depressed, Talk to Jesus, start reading your Bible, and ask the Holy Spirit to help you see the light at the end of the tunnel. The main thing is;
11Cor. 12: 9, 10      DON'T EVER GIVE UP!

HERE IS A TIP. If you want to feel better about your self, start by helping someone who is less fortunate than you, and can not possibly pay you for your deed of kindness. Would you like to know a secret? Praise God, I no longer have time to be depressed since I have focused all of my energy in trying to help others through this on line ministry. God is so Good and all I can say is, Thank you, Sweet Jesus!

Are you searching for something and have tried everything but nothing has seemed to work. You are at the end of your rope and don't know where to turn. Then why not give your life to Jesus? These next few minutes could possibly be the most important time in your life and the decision you will now make, I guarantee, will be the most important decision you have or ever will make. Will I reject Jesus Christ or will I accept Him? The decision is yours and yours alone. No one can make it for you. IF YOU HAVE DECIDED TO ACCEPT JESUS, THEN WHY NOT PRAY TO HIM NOW!

Dear God, I know that I am a sinner and I am sorry for my sins and I ask for your forgiveness. I believe in your Son, Jesus, that He was born of a virgin, suffered and died for my sins, but arose from the grave and is alive and with you in Heaven right now. I accept you, Jesus, as my Lord and Saviour and ask that you save my soul. Seal me with the Holy Spirit. For I pray this in the Name of Jesus Christ, Amen...


But if you’re not sure you are ready for this most important decision concerning your eternal welfare and, If you would like to FIRST know more about Jesus then I’d ask that you go here and read the page: ”Let me Introduce You to Jesus” Make sure to Turn up your speakers. This model prayer is on that page for you also.
http://www.jimkeelingministries.com/introJesus/introJesus.htm  

But the very most important thing when dealing with God is truthful, from the heart, sincerity. After all you’re talking to the One who created the universe and all that there in is. He is the only One who deserves our total awe, respect, and worship; for He is the Great I AM…
And please: Don’t be one of these mealy mouthed hypocrites pretending to be something they just aren’t. For those who are; will one day stand before God and hear Him say. Depart from me ye who work iniquity
I NEVER KNEW YOU!

But and if you have prayed in your own words this prayer to Jesus, and earnestly meant it:
Then you are now a child of God and will spend eternity in Heaven. Now, go and tell someone about your decision and begin reading your Bible. I usually recommend you start with the book of John.
And if you are physically able, find and attend a church that is preaching the word of God and where you feel comfortable and get baptized into that local body of believers. God Bless you as you begin your new walk with Jesus.
 

 Updates; On, July 28, 2002 my doctor told me to get my affairs in order, find 6 strong men, and call the family in… That was pretty plain, wasn’t it? But glory to God, the Great physician, He wasn’t ready for this ole preacher to go home just yet. And so the following March 2003, after having months of the family and friends here every weekend, I went out and bought a brand new Suzuki Volusia 800cc motor cycle and have been riding it ever since. To date, I have over 6200 miles logged. And most have been around the 9 mile block I ride around here in the country.


My son Scott and sister-in-law Dianne on his Harley and yours truly on the Suzuki.
 

2009 Update Note: Since I wrote the original testimony back in ‘99’ and got the Suzuki there has been many things happen. Some good but some have been very hard to handle.

For we lost our 19 year old grandson, Scotty in 2006 in a auto accident.

In Jan. of 2007 my son Jimmy and I went to Mich. and picked up an old 1949 Chrysler. The story is on the hobbies and work section of this site under the welding hood… (smile) I still go to the garage on good days and piddle with my old cars and bike… Mind you I may be out there sitting in the garage 5 hours and be able to do only 5 or 10 minutes of work but the main thing is simply this. I refuse to give up! The rest of the time I’m sitting here in my wheel chair and on this computer, trying to do something which will be pleasing to my Heavenly Father. Oh and by the way. Since 1999 I’ve worn out, blown up, or used up, 6 computers and this one is beginning to get weary.

Latest news update Aug 22, 2009: My friend Steve got my computer going but said it was worn out... My dear pastor friend from Pennsylvania, Rev. Harold Kelley, was visiting that very weekend and when he heard about the computer problem, he wrote out a check to get a new one. So Connie girl went and picked the old one up from Steve and then went to the store and got this one I'm now using... Amazing how God worked all of that out and in His timing. Well Glory!

Sorry, I got a little side tracked. Well, after Scotty died in the fall of 2006 it was in the spring of 2007, my Connie girl had a heart attack and they had to put in 4 splints.  She is doing really well now and is doing something for someone all the time. Always on the road and helping someone.  So what I can't do physically she handles and I do the online ministry. I have over 2000 folks in my email part of this ministry now so together my Connie girl and I make a pretty good team.

And then in 2008, our son Jimmy was killed in an auto accident and both grandchildren were hurt pretty bad. But, as a result of the accident, that very Sunday, Aaron, Scotty's younger brother and our grandson found Jesus as his personal Saviour. Yes praise God, there is another child of God, saved and born again. God took a tragedy and used it to reach a young man and save his soul... Well glory! 

 But then this last spring, April 6, 2009, my mom passed away and went to be with Jesus. So the past several years have been a roller coaster ride of ups and downs, good and bad. But I simply can't quit. I can't  give up! I must keep going for my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ! I just simply must keep on keeping on!

The main thing here is that God has a work for me, my Connie girl, and for you as well to complete... But as for me? Well, until God is finished with me I’ll be, by the grace of God, right here doing the very best I can to spread the Good News around the world. The time is short and I know that this world, as you and I know it, is soon going to be gone. For my Jesus is coming back to gather all of His children and take them home with Him… The tribulation period of time is in the 11th hour… My Question is: 

ARE YOU READY???

Thank you for coming and reading this, my testimony pt.2
May God bless you in His love,
 Jim

May God Bless You is my Prayer!

 

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